Gumdrops falling on my head.

Going to webcam gummy later! 

Then conference w Claire for another late night talk :)

Yay! 

Nothing much to blog about today...

Just went a few places today. Bought some stuff, went to church, had nice lunch. Took IC photo. Thats about it. I WANT TO RETAKE!!!!! SOMEONE COME WITH ME AFTER SCHOOL TMR TO RETAKE!

Answer Key?

If only life went the way we want it to. Its just so demoralising. When you try so hard, yet you just cant seem to get what you want.

Oh well. Whatever la. I'm just gonna think of happy things now :)

Today...was pretty boring day. I need to go shopping so badly. AHHHHH. GSS QUICKLY COME :)

Ok, i'm gonna set aside money every month to buy AT LEAST one thing :)

I need more $$$$. Gonna beg my mum to increase my allowance! 

There's only one day of school next week! And the best thing is that, that day is the day we get released early from school :) Haha.

Have sec 3 camp on weds, thurs, friday. Not really looking forward to it. I want to sleep on my comfy bed than sleep on the hard wooden floor :( 

I dont really have the mood to go out these days...

Just feel like coming home and lie around doing nothing. Waste of time, but at least i feel relaxed.

Dont stress dont stress dont stress.

Woah, it has been how long since i last blogged? 37 days. Wow, one whole month.
Haha, school has been really really stressful. Struggling to catch up with whatever i missed out in term 1 and trying to do well in term 2 so that i wont get cut. Gosh, like its really damn difficult? Trying to not get caught for anything and to stay out of trouble w any of the teachers. So far so good. I guess.

Oh well, now, when i go church, its like a time for me to reflect and all, since what we are learning now is the different forms of prayer :) it fits into my life damn nicely now :) When things get outta hand, we know who to turn to for help.


OH OH! Finally, the day we have been waiting for.. HAHA AIR CON FOR OUR BLOODY STUFFY AND HOT CLASSROOM!!! Tomorrow tomorrow! Thats the only thing i am looking forward to. Mondays are horrible.. Back to back sciences, blech.

Anw, was having late night talk with claire last night, laughed our ass off. Hahahaha, made her throat even worse, OOPS. Haha! and finally, LIKE FINALLY went to ion for prawn noodles last friday w claire, kelly, liane and heidi. Played some stupid game which made us laughed till we were almost crying, haha! Fridays are our officially gng out to celebrate the fact that we survived yet another week of school! Haha! I love it, cause i never fail to laugh w them, all my worries and stress just fly under the carpet, even if its just for a few hours.

MARINA BARAGE

SOS.

I'm so angry.
I really cannot stand it. Why does she have to keep taking my phone away.
Why does she ALWAYS HAVE TO ONLY CARE ABOUT MY STUDIES AND NOTHING ELSE.

Why does she always say that i only think of play when i have been studying my shit ass off for the past few days. Going for tuition after tuition. Doing tuition homework before tuition, come back from tuition, have to do some more tuition homework that the teacher gave for that week. I tell her all these and she comes and say, you not happy then quit tuition la. I'm not OBLIGED to give it to you -.-

The thing is i'm telling her these to let her know that i never just play and dont study right. I never even stepped out of the hse this holiday to go out EXCEPT TO TUITION.

Why cant she see that i'm already trying.

Ranted on the phone with ______. Feel so much better now (:

You will always be my baby.

Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY <3 <3

She is finally 15!!

Haha, i texted her in the morning, but no reply. Such a pig. Haha, bet she is still sleeping!

Anw, these 15 years with you have been just so awesome! 

I cant believe i have known you for such a long time! 

SINCE PRESCHOOL!

We went to the same preschool, same kindergarden, same primary and now, same secondary (:

We were neighbours since young, we shifted house, and we are still neighbours now!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

Thanks for making me laugh so hard at your retardedness and funny loud laughter.

WOOHOO!!! PICNIC@ MARINA BARAGE TOGETHER ON FRIDAY W THE OTHERS!! 

CANT WAIT!!

Every little thing you do.

Did you really think what you did would benefit me?
Did you think how the other party would have felt?
Did you really know what kind of a person she actually was? Or did you judged her based on past incidents.
Did it ever occur to you that this was a one sided matter?

Did all these questions passed through your head before you sent the message out?
I doubt so.

I really dont understand why you have to control my entire life. First cheer, then dance then drama, all these were the stuff i loved to do, but you threatened to take it away from me -.-
Then it was my phone, then my studies, then now my friends?

You mean i dont even have the freedom of choice on who i want to be friends with? like wtf?

I can control my emotions in front of you, i can hide it and all, but really, inside, do you know how i really feel? I feel like my heart has been torn into a million pieces. This line is so cliche but so true.

I dont understand, how is it, nothing else seems to matter to you except my studies.

Little girl depends on things like that.

Went for cip w vanessa, yong zhen and kimberly (Gng again tmr) :)
Was supposed to go @ 8. But ended up gng at 2. Haha, cause we went ion for starbucks in the morning then cine to watch Dear John. Like FINALLY!!! Waited so long, ok, quite long to watch it.

Heard that it was pretty good, someone even said that is was better than Avatar...Oh well. Idk, didnt even watch that. Haha. I cried 3-4 times during the movie. So sad! Haha, or maybe i'm just emotional.

Then went to eat popeyes and then cip. Spammed photos on yz cam (:
It was quite fun, like eating yami, ben&jerry, getting face painting, haha, but was tiring.

OMG VANESSA LOW SHI YA JUST TEXTED ME THAT SHE IS GNG TO DYE HER HAIR SOOOOON. ARGH! JEALOUS JEALOUS!!!!

Anw, holidays are finally coming!! Going bangkok this coming saturday! SHOPPING!!!!!!!!

I CAN LIVE WITHOUT BOOKS?

 

I CAN.

I want my life without books. Its wrecking my brain.

I hardly have any time to go onto the computer and blog.

All my time, energy, is all spent on those BOOKS.

So many tests this week :/

1 down, 4 more to go.

I CAN DO THIS.

SHALL NOT FAIL ANYMORE!

I JUST NEED THE ENERGY TO STAY AWAKE IN CLASSES.

Everyday, Lord, I'll
Learn to stand upon Your word
And I pray that I
I might come to know You more
That You would guide me in every single step I take, that
Everyday I can
Be Your light unto the world

Whenever something happens, 

whenever you feel like the whole world is crashing down on you,

 when you think that your life is falling apart. 

That is when you actually realise His presence.

During this lent, i shall make it a point to make sure i pray every night, and stay close to You, Lord. 

Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight.

Cip ytd was pretty fun ;)
Earned $2 from playing cards (haha) and they gave us $5 for gng to do cip. Haha cool right ;)
What we did:
Went up and down buses, walking here and there, quarreling w stupid impatient bus uncles, sitting down slacking, smsing using each other phones. 


Was super shacked, reached home around 1.

Sometimes, i really do think that i'm getting involved in too many things :(
I feel so drained out at the end of the week. I have no time to do anything anymore. My life seems to revolve around work, and more work. Its never ending. And then the tests come in, cca, drama. Argh, i really feel like giving up. I just hope that my parents will be able to understand and not start being particular about small stuff again, but it all seems to be coming back. They are starting it again. Scolded me like crazy in the morning for ______ again.

I hate it when they place such high expectations on me and then get dissappointed and I get so stressed up and exhausted. It sucks. It really does.

Raindrops falling on the rooftop

 

So exhausted today :(

Went out for lunch w mummy and kelly.

Met vanessa there ;)  Hahaha. I'm still so tired after sleeping for hours..

Have to study for stupid physics test :( 

I really dont want to take it :(

I know i'll fail.

I hate this feeling.

I swear.

Last day.

Oh man...time really flies when you are having fun :( it's Tuesday alr. School starts tmr.
Idw to go to school so badly :( waking up super early, falling asleep in lessons, don't know what the teacher is talking about, scoldings from teachers, more homework and more tests. $#<%*@

Physics test on Thursday, I think I'm really going to flunk this test. I really dk what the teacher is talking abt. Will you believe it, i'm not even sure of the bloody topics tested.

Oh well, on the lighter note, I still have 11 more hours before it's weds! Going to visit more houses and then going to watch Percy Jackson w my brother and valentines day w cousins :) and dinner at my cousin house. Yipeeeeeee! I'm gonna play hard, very hard for the next few hours :D

GOOD STUFF.

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(this is damn cute!)



I SERIOUSLY CANNOT STOP WATCHING THESE VIDEOS!!!!

Bitch.

Just finished visiting!
Collected $$$, gonna get more tonight!! 2 reunion dinners :D
Haha, anyway, I AM SO &%^$#@ pissed ok! Some asshole who is younger than me come scold me on fb. WTF RIGHT?!
She said :
hey bitch.
you and Kelly tan should rly get a life, before you talk behind people’s back, and pretend that they don’t know.
cos they’re not fucking stupid, and they can read.
your junior joined dance because the stupid system and choosed it for her.
It was never her first choice anyw. i thought maybe, well, the genius could deduce that.
but no! Your junior hates dance, WHAT TO DO ??? ): ):
maybe you do the peace sign and kissy lips and post on fb ?
awww.cos your so dumb , that you have to set your status about it! wow! how complicated.
Also you’re a bitch. wait, i said that already? sorry, have to repeat stuff for the slow one, eh? if you actually managed to read all this, that is. you did? yay! kudos to cheryln koh/bitch.
as for Kelly tan, i don’t know what she has a bug in her butt about. like anyone actually gives a flying pig about what she and her ugly spectacles think.

I AM FREAKING PISSED I TELL YOU. CAN SHE GO GET A LIFE? SERIOUSLY I DONT EVEN BLOODY KNOW HER AND I DIDNT KNOW SHE EXISTED.

I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!!

Busy. Busy.

Drama rehearsal at art house today.
Met olivia at yck mrt then took to raffles and drank coffee before gng to the arts house. Supposed to meet different people at different stops but it kinda failed. Either we forgot to tell them we got onto the train or we just couldnt find them cause it was so crowded.

It was pretty fun :) Laughed until started tearing. We had so much free time la. Rehearse what shit. Cause they were setting the lighting and music.

So we ended up playing retarded games in the dressing room. Like this game called, HUH, WHAT, WHY? hahahah it was freaking funny.

Some people pissed the shit out of me la. Shant say who.

Then we went for lunch at some MIND CAFE. Haha, so hard to find good food at that area. The stupid cafe menu made the food look so damn good. But ended up it was all shit. Like the pasta seemed uncook and had a weird smell. And they took so long to serve us. Grr.

When everything was done, went over to raffles city for dinner with some of the drama people. Wasn't really in the mood to talk.

And, then most of them left. Left with gwen olivia and myself.

Walked around and got some nice stuff to write cards for valentine day :D :D

Bitched alot :) Bitching helps to kill time man. Seriously. Tested and proven. Haha ;)

The real performance tmr (: Hope everything runs smoothly. And i dont screw up :/

Never be alone.

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall

When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on

We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always

I won't be missing a word all day

I'm gonna be there always

I won't be missing a word all day

You'll never be alone baby. <3

You had a bad day, take it one down.

Went to j8 w Vanessa and rest for a while before going home. Camslutszxsz in the cab. Haha, I was so tired when I reached home I just plopped myself on the bed and slept. All the way to 7 plus. Then went for tuition :)

Omg, this reminds me. I was so f annoyed la!!! Like first I forgot to hand up the stupid drama essay I stayed up till 1.30 to do. Already minus one mark cause it was due last week! And then during Chinese test idk how. But I missed out 2 questions!!!! When we had to hand it up then I found out. And I was like...shit....

Argh. Bad day.

Life's hard.

My blog is like kind of dead now. So busy w everything. No time to even go onto the computer! the last few posts were like posted from my iPhone.

There are like a total of 4 tests this week :( Chinese, chemistry, lit, and ting xie. Haha but the best part is I'm going to miss 3 out of 4 of the tests :) have drama night :) weds rehearsals, no need go sch. Thursday, performance. No need go school. Friday time off school, cause we will be ending quite late :) can sleep in. Only need to reach school at 10.15. Shiok rIght? Hahaha, jealous not?

And today was..wow. Quite a day.
Vanessa was crying like shitzzzzxxxx cause sth happened again. And In the afternoon I couldn't rly do much as I was really really busy w church tuition then meetig w class ppl at j8. Sigh. Just hope that it will work out this time round.
Sometimes I really really really wished, why can't life be like how we were when we were younger? Stress free. Boys free. Well, we are all growing up. It's part and parcel of life i guess. Life just have to be so difficult. Grr. After reading Vanessa blog ifelt so much like crying. ESP at the father and mother part. It just seems so true...

Anw, I'll try. Try to really pay attention in class and not doze off or get distracted. I never really pay attention in class nowadays. It sucks knowing that what you are doing is wrong yet you just can't bring yourself to change.

Blogging in class now!
Haha teacher is boring shitzzxz man. sigh.

Claire just turned 15! Went to swensens fo birthday lunch the day before. Laughed like craaazzzyyy! Hahahah, so long since we last did that tgt man.

Liane taught me the new dance!!! Super nice!!! omg. I love it like hell!
I rly dk what to do. Because of drama I can't go for dance on Tuesday. And I mean EVERY Tuesday :( I'll miss ALOT. Should i drop??? Gah...